My Private Life
A simple journal about myself and how I experience everyday life

Nov
08

exactly one year ago, i thought i had everything that i ever wanted. even though my life were just getting started to fall apart. i have no complaint about it. i was happy even though i know it won’t last forever like what i had imagine. yes i’m sad that i don’t have it now. yes i knew from the start i was going to lose everything, yes i knew there was never a future about it. but i was so stubborn, i don’t even try to listen to what i heard, to see what i saw.

now that moment have past, it was part of my history. it has been a year. one long year of waiting and hoping. i had enough. i have promise myself that i will not give up. i will keep trying and trying to move on. oh and i did it, though it has not passes the 1 year period yet. but my life was never better. there’s something missing to fulfill the emptiness that i had in me.

… to be continued

next post will be 2 weeks from today.

Nov
01

I’m bored!

it’s getting boring…sometimes i think i’m done with it. but there’s something in me that keep going through it.

Sep
23

Clean Up

today i’ve decided to clean up my ‘mail’. i just deleted all the unnecessary emails that reminds me of something from my past that are not worth to me anymore. well this is the 1st phase actually, cos  i haven’t delete the master ‘mail’ yet. but no worries as i have plan to do it during the ‘1 year anniversary’ of that mail which is on November this year. so after that precious moment, everything won’t be the same. so stay tune ~

Aug
15

The Mraz Show

Jul
10

Protected: 2nd Time

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Jul
10

1st Week

Mon – refer HERE

Tue – another ‘briefing session’ bout the company and my new job plus ice breaking session by MH, V, DA, & C. the briefing session was ok. I got to know lot more bout my job and where it fit in the company. then I had a lunch at the stall behind our office building with the rest (L, P, W, S, F, R, & H). after lunch we did some activity to ‘break the ice’ among us. we were divided by team of 4 consist of 2 person. I was with L. we had to build a tower as high as we can. I & L was leading until our tower collapsed at the end of the game. which made me dissapointed a bit as I like to win in any games i play. next activity I did was the worst as i was being blindfolded and i know i can’t perform well in it since i had the same experienced before during my family day.  the last activity was a translation game. then we got our laptops and there was a mistakes with the spelling of my name.

Wed – the mistakes bout my name in the email & computer account was corrected. our trainer (MD), from uk came. he went through the introduction and company history with us and mention a little bit bout our job.

Thu – the mistakes bout my name in another account has been corrected. we continued with our training by MD. yesterday’s and today’s training were still ok for me as i understand most of the concept. we also had some test, and i managed to get it right. so okay, no worries.

Fri – i woke up late, i set the alarm wrongly. the training by MD continued, its getting tougher as we going deeper into the whole process. at some point my mind was not in the meeting room because i found it’s hard to digest the whole information. and i bet when he ask me to summaries the things that i had learn next monday, i don’t think i’m able to explained it.i also saw that my ’saham’ is starting to going down. but other 2 people saham is going up. we had lunch at delicious with the whole team, MD treated us this time. after work, MH invited us and BA’s team together with A and some other staffs to play pool. i had no choice but to try to play it. even though i dunno how to play it. but luck is on my side, i managed to score 1 ball. now i understand how to play it. K said, playing pool and futsal is part of our company’s activities during the weekend/after work especially on friday. it’s a good thing that we get to know each other in a casual setting. but it’s not always the case.

Jul
06

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Jun
26

Immortal Beloved

My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved
I can live only wholly with you or not at all
Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of
our existance can we achieve our purpose to live together
Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful
heart of your beloved.
Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours

Jun
13

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Jun
12

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