Nov
21
Reminiscent Of The Past (part 2)
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something had happened one year ago, it was the last time i ever saw it, it was the last time i ever touch it and it was the last time i ever felt for it. it was something good that turned out to be bad in my life. well, it was over, but the truth is i really misses it. all those things that happened one year ago.
it was not a big deal anymore, i only feel that way because… well it probably because of it was my first time ever i had it. but i know it was all just a fantasy, it was not real because it was all a lied. a very good lied from a very good liar.
the funny thing is, i am never mad at that liar. i am never angry at that user. i even cannot hate that person. i know what it means, but what is the point. you can’t never clap with just one hand innit. it won’t work.
well as for today, i am still the same person. it just that, i am the person without those memories. it still in me though, it will always do. but i want to forget about it like it is never ever happen. and i will. time will tell. one year is not enough to forget those things especially when there is still no replacement for it.
but i will remain positive, thinking there will be a new one, and hopefully the right one for me. i dunno when it will happen, but i hope i will find it soon.
well, this will be the last time i ever write about this. i want to move on. if i keep thinking about this, i will never move on. let it be this way. it’s better for me.
The End.
Nov
08
Reminiscent Of The Past (part 1)
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exactly one year ago, i thought i had everything that i ever wanted. even though my life were just getting started to fall apart. i have no complaint about it. i was happy even though i know it won’t last forever like what i had imagine. yes i’m sad that i don’t have it now. yes i knew from the start i was going to lose everything, yes i knew there was never a future about it. but i was so stubborn, i don’t even try to listen to what i heard, to see what i saw.
now that moment have past, it was part of my history. it has been a year. one long year of waiting and hoping. i had enough. i have promise myself that i will not give up. i will keep trying and trying to move on. oh and i did it, though it has not passes the 1 year period yet. but my life was never better. there’s something missing to fulfill the emptiness that i had in me.
… to be continued
next post will be 2 weeks from today.
Nov
01
I’m bored!
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it’s getting boring…sometimes i think i’m done with it. but there’s something in me that keep going through it.
Sep
23
Clean Up
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today i’ve decided to clean up my ‘mail’. i just deleted all the unnecessary emails that reminds me of something from my past that are not worth to me anymore. well this is the 1st phase actually, cos i haven’t delete the master ‘mail’ yet. but no worries as i have plan to do it during the ‘1 year anniversary’ of that mail which is on November this year. so after that precious moment, everything won’t be the same. so stay tune ~
